so, I was enjoying my winter holiday, but a lot of things happened , specially me getting DRESS syndrome over an allergic reaction to medicine, so I had to spend days at the ER, and many checkups afterwards, mostly taking steroids and 9 different pills of whatever they're deciding to give me.
I was hanging out with my girlfriend, but because of that I had to return to my dorm and I'm pretty bummed out about it, I guess I'll have to enjoy some alone time.
First I thought maybe I could go on walks and lose weight, but I wasn't allowed too, because going on walks would hurt my feet (I had DRESS rash on my feet, all over my body, in fact), I thought, well, if I can't walk, then might aswell work out a bit, wrong, I wans't allowed to do that either, due to it spiking cortisol levels and it apparently affecting my body recovery (I was having liver problems due to this DRESS syndrome).
So, if any physical activity was out of the window, I was like, well, at least I'm going to enjoy myself and have some nice food and relax, wrong, I wasn't allowed to eat anything fried, I wasn't allowed to have sugar, I wasn't allowed to have cocoa powder, black pepper, any spices at all, I wasn't allowed to have meat that would take a lot to process in the liver, so I was pretty much eating only steamed foods.
There was this one exception though, there was this really good 牛丼 (Gyūdon) I was in fact allowed to eat, and it was very good, and it wasn't expensive either, I could get a 超大碗 (super big bowl) for like 29rmb or less depending on my vouchers.
That kept me going and lifted my mood up for a while (I was going through a harsh time, it was a near death experience with slow recovery).
But then I thought, if physical activity is out of the question, and eating (relatively) nice food is out of the question, what can I do?
Well immediately I thought about being productive, and maybe studying chinese, or studying for some certificates, or just working on all the things I have to do for the next few months (like papers, etc). But I also thought that I haven't had a proper break in a long time.
So, while I was thinking I was thinking about one thing specifically, my childhood, or me being a early-teenager, or just a kid in general, and what I wanted to achieve during that time.
And I remember during that time, I always wanted to be good at counter strike (I was only good at TF2 and osu! when I was a kid), and to beat many other games, or write things, compose, have a blog, those are things I wanted to do as a kid.
So I made a list, and I decided to tackle each thing one at a time, so far the webpage is up and running properly
For counter strike, I decided to get coaching, from a random service in 闲鱼 (kinda like chinese ebay).
I hope it's good enough... we'll see